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i kinda don't know what to write. me. i can usually rant about anything. but I'm shocked. i was dating someone for about a year and two months, someone who mattered to me. it wasn't a perfect fit (even though he loved me and i loved him) and so we decided to stop seeing eachother. his behavior pushed me away, and my behavior DEFINITLY pushed him away. i take responsibility. i had a feeling we were gonna break up. it was looming, but for some reason, i didn't think it was gonna end over the phone while he was in Santa Monica and i was in Hollywood. he didn't want to see me in person.
it's been a couple of days now. we still haven't seen eachother. after a year and two months, i think ending it face to face would have been the decent thing to do. i know this is hard for both of us, but i would have preferred a proper goodbye; looking eachother in the eyes, recognizing the fact that we mattered to one another, that this wasn't a dream, and that our relationship really happened. but, he refused and snapped at me when i brought this up. it's fine. it has to be, he won't budge. at least it gives me more evidence of why we shouldn't be together.
i wish you well Mr. i learned a lot. tell your family i love them, even if that last bit of advice from your mom was bad. i just wanted some respect- a dignified goodbye/parting of ways. I'm gonna assume you shut down because you don't know how to deal with the emotions you're having. this is a bummer, but i AM glad we met. i wish you well, and I'm a better person because of the time we spent together. xo, me
update: he came over today. we said goodbye face to face, had a chat, and i think we're actually gonna be friends. he's a great guy. and i totally don't hate him. xo
By: boycrazy on August 31, 2009
Tags: alexi wasser, break ups, imboycrazy, photo by mike piscitelli, rants, thoughts and stories
Dear, dear Alexi. I love you and I wish you all good things.
xo (and I mean it)
hang in there alexi. i just got out of a relationship too, and that lasted nearly 10 years. its hard.. but it will be ok.
Im in a relationship right now with someone and it’s not really working out. Im in another situ that kind of is working out with someone else , but might get messed if i don’t leave at the right time. I don’t know what to do.
My “boy” just moved across the country for school last week, and our situation was always so messed up that I’m at a loss of how I should feel. In the 18 months that we were hanging out and hooking up we were never actually a couple, even though a lot of people sort of saw us as each other’s boy/girl and everybody knew what was going on. It wasn’t until he moved that he realized he should’ve spent the last year and a half being with me for real. I feel shitty because of that but trying to keep myself up with other thoughts… like hey, maybe I’m not really a lost cause, and I can’t be too sad because I don’t even know if it would have ever really happened, since he always needed so much space…
Anyway that is totally irrelevent to your post! Except that I understand how fucked up it must feel. But like you I just try to remember (and it’s something I’ve been able to appreciate more in the last week) that no matter what it looked like to the outside, we knew each other inside and out and we both learned so much and that is really great.
Stay strong girl ! And keep smiling even though you might feel like just hiding
It’s good to learn more about oneself and to be even stronger from it <3
Things like that suck, it’s like a friend moving away and not saying goodbye because they don’t want to get hurt but completely different at the same time
You were too good for that loser anyway. Rock on!
So heyyyyyy. Yr single now? B)
[but seriously, hope yr ok. shit sux.]
I think I know exactly how you feel. I was feeling like I could have written that post. I’d been in a great relationship for the past two and a half years, except that the last year was long distance. It’s over now and it’s one of those things that is fine because it has to be. I also relate strongly to the fact that it kind of invalidates the whole relationship to end it in such a way. But I thank you for teaching by example to be strong and remember all the great things we learned.
YAY! Good! Positive energy +++ xoxo
let’s go get laid
god, your blog is such a relief. thank you.