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I feel you alexi.. Be strong <3
okay now this
‘i just realized why I’m boy crazy; I’m boy crazy because every time i see/meet a new dude- i have hope. hope because it’s another chance for me to find love. a love that’s unconditional and stronger than the love i never got from my father. wahhhhhhhhh!
how was i the last person to know this about myself?’
is 100% true for me!
the last sentence is actually almost painful to read. how come i realized what i’ve been doing for the past years only after reading your blog? from the beginning of the facebook guy story i knew it sounded familiar.
well, thanks for opening my eyes (and i mean it!)
love you
xoxo
you are wonderful.
WOWSERS!!!
I think there are more of us that can relate to this…way more ppl than u can imagine.
I have an awsome dude, and i used to think I could risk him in a heart beat just to prove that i could.
“i may not be a sweetly sad faced, overweight, African American girl, but i too am precious!”
LoL, i love you alexi, you crazy ass white girl you!
i love it.
weeerk girl werk.
Daddy issues representin’.
I have them too.
I think those of us with daddy issues want to work for the attention of a guy because that’s the only way we’re used to getting attention from our dad.
Sometimes, I envy people who have good relationships with both of their parents because it makes relationships for them a bit easier. I’m sure there are perfectly normal people who have problems too, but they can appreciate guys who are willing to do anything for them.
Whereas I, and others who have the same issues, can’t stand to be completely accepted so quickly by just any guy. Sure, we like them acknowledging us, but we’d never return the favor. It’s a selfish thing but I think it’s the only way we know how to react when we’re not being complimented/loved by the guys who we want to love/love us in return.
I said that “sometimes” I envy the people who have good relationships, because in the end, I think it makes us a lot stronger the way we are. Not saying we are stronger than normal people, but at this stage in our lives after everything, attention from our fathers or those who we want attention from, even mothers, wouldn’t be enough to change the deep rooted issues that we have with relationships; and from here on out it’s just us trying to figure the way we’re wired/what works for us and how it could ever be healthy.
I pride you for being brutally honest and I’ve seen comments from people who are slightly negative about your openness, but I think you are courageous woman who has your shit together whether you realize it or not. More than any of us, anyway.
(sorry for ranting)
i love this! i love you! i don’t have daddy issues but i’m otherwise boy crazy in the exact same hopeful way!
I am the same way! I tell myself that I won’t let sex affect me and then I get all these emotional attachments after. I think it’s a girl thing.
OMG alexi this is why i read your blog. for this! youre so amazing, and even though youre not a full time writer or anything( i dont think u are…oh god i hope youre not!!!) you represent another kind of writing; your not politically correct, you dont care about using literary tricks, you just entertain your reader, and damn good! and youre soooo relatable, i feel like im reading my diary sometimes. thank you alexi, for lifting me up
you’ll definitely find love, alexi!
Man, this is my life right now, only I’m trapped in a perpetual hook-up. Even though logically I know it’s never going to be a relationship, that we aren’t right for each other, and that I mainly like him because he’s so good in bed, I can’t help but care! I’m fucking attached and it sucks. Ugh.
gah this was exactly what I needed to hear! I’m pretty much going through the same thing and its so exhilarating to see that someone else understands and can write about it in such a way that is comprehensive and disclosing.
love you alexi!
don’t stop believing
hold onto that feeling
Alexi. Thank you so, so, so much.
You’ve saved me, and my brain.
love your blog alexi. i met/hooked up with a dude from nyc that sounds suspiciously like mr. american gigolo over here. are his initials A.B. by any chance?
ha – if this characters initials are A.B. and he moonlights as a DJ… cat is out! he’s such a predator!!! not nearly as charming in person as he pens himself.
i had a very similar situation a couple weeks ago and reading this helped a lotttt. thank you
This blog post made me happy
Thank you.
i know this isnt the point of the article but whats the guy’s blog – im interested to see what its like and also to perve.
xxx
ps this post articulated in a week what i came to understand from 5 years of those sort of hook ups. you’re amazing
you are the north star to all wandering vaginas! kudos to you for keepin’ it real!
i know how you feel
it makes me so happy that you wrote this. i’m glad that my feelings are just as relatable as anybody elses.
1) I look forward to the day when women abandon post-modern words like “vadge-hole” when referencing their most-intimate-of-areas, and embrace old-fashioned colloquialisms like “beaver” (*).
2) There is no such thing as unconditional love.
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(*) Q: “What’s a Fashionista?” A: “A broad who thinks her beaver don’t stink, ’cause she owns a Donna Karen handbag.”
That’s pretty heavy: did you make it up for this blog or is it true?
glad to finally get part 3, doll. some encounters can be eye-openers – glad you made it out with a fresh perspective. xo
I love you =)
I’ve definitely been there. Heck, I still am. I think I’ve been able to have casual, meaningless sex before, but it’s not the kind I want to repeat. Then there’s the “casual” hook-up that I secretly hope will turn into something more, even though I know better. When the sex is really good, it’s hard to stop a recurring hook-up, but I know I’ll probably get burned in the end. I wish I knew how to deal with these things better.
the realization was genius!
You are the best!
Love from Montreal =]
Hey! You are super hot, funny, smart, nuts in a good way. Don’t get with douchebags!!! Date a secret fox! Someone under the radar who’s way smarter and more interesting than any weird hipster type! You deserve it! xo!